Uck.

[xp_tarot]

Insomnia is still no fun.

Insomnia when I could be snuggling is double-not-fun.

Concert tommorow, and the first time -with- the band, and -so- very nervous.

It occurs to me that this is probably not helping my insomnia.

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[xp_daytripper]

Student kitchen, cupboard where the tea and coffee and stuff is kept, there's a paper bag of my sleeping potion with directions. Try some. And if that doesn't work, let me know and I could use the spell Strange did on me.

*goes back to her own 'snuggling'*

[x-crowdofone.livejournal.com]

I was so glad my parents were here at Christmas. Had a good talk with my dad about the merits of actually performing vs. running away to live under an assumed name.

Would it help to think of it as just like practice, except not in the music room and with some people sort of incidentally in the area?

[x-sparky.livejournal.com]

Think about it this way. If you fuck up with the band, the band will probably cover it for you.

[x-siryn.livejournal.com]

*patpats* First concert I was so nervous that before hand in my room...I, er, blew out all the light bulbs with my scream. But you'll be fine.

If people watching you makes you nervous just, um, stare at Doug's butt as he dances around stage?

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[x-tarot.livejournal.com]

Actually, Doug would be about half the problem.

He turns into an unrepentant flirt on stage. You may have noticed.

[x-siryn.livejournal.com]

Good point. It's quite amusing, actually.

...I'd offer to let you stare at my butt, but you know that's just a little too weird. The floor is always nice.

[x-cypher.livejournal.com]

You're going to do fine, love. :)

[x-blink.livejournal.com]

you're not helping.

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[x-tarot.livejournal.com]

I know, and I did.

The touseled hair look is distressingly cute on you.

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[x-cypher.livejournal.com]

That icon...

Wibble.

I think I need to go take a cold shower now. Or another quick dip in the pool.

Wibble.

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[x-crowdofone.livejournal.com]

*snicker* So that's what that was about.

*goes back to waiting for the photo place to call*

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[x-tarot.livejournal.com]

Consider it revenge for the pants and the whatever-you-call-it on stage today.

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[x-tarot.livejournal.com]

Do I want to know?

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[x-crowdofone.livejournal.com]

There was wibbling in person. It was very entertaining.

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[x-tarot.livejournal.com]

I can imagine. :)

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[x-cypher.livejournal.com]

Yes, let's all poke fun at my overactive libido. :-/

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[x-tarot.livejournal.com]

Some of us are not making fun.

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[x-crowdofone.livejournal.com]

Yeah, from the guy waiting for the photo place to call about the two rolls of film he took of his girlfriend in a bikini. C'mon, Doug, it's not like I'm a hard target here. :)

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[x-tarot.livejournal.com]

I think Doug forgets that I am still highly distracted by the picture of his for the band.

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[x-cypher.livejournal.com]

Yeah, but you're so much more...comfortable with it, I guess.

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[x-cypher.livejournal.com]

No, I know that. I just...geh. I can't explain it. I feel stupid. :-/

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[x-tarot.livejournal.com]

Do you want to come talk about it?

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[x-cypher.livejournal.com]

I don't know. I don't know how to explain any of this without feeling like an idiot. This isn't anything you've done, love, it's a me thing. Me and my stupid libido.

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[x-tarot.livejournal.com]

Okay, now we -are- going to talk about this.

You have a choice. The sunroom or outside. Pick one.

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[x-cypher.livejournal.com]

Hiding is not an option?

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[x-tarot.livejournal.com]

Have I ever let you hide?

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[x-crowdofone.livejournal.com]

Well, if it helps, last year around this time Kitty went swimming with me in something a lot less revealing than what she had on today and I didn't know what to do with my eyes.

You'll get the hang of it eventually. :)

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[x-cypher.livejournal.com]

No, you haven't. I suppose it's this or animated walls to prevent me from running away again, isn't it.

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[x-tarot.livejournal.com]

Maybe not the walls. I think.. maybe no walls for a while still.