Future planning.

[xp_tarot]

Everyone is talking about college and the AP tests (I went to the google and looked that up.) and their future.

I have no idea what I want to do. Everyone else seems so ... focused. Ev wants to be a lawyer, Kitty wants to work with computers or science, Piotr can draw, Jamie is good at doing a dozen things at once, Jono plays the guitar..

I do not know what I want to do. And I do not know what I am any good at.

And all the things I want to try to do are not going to happen. I wanted to try to use the television and movies to help people see that mutants aren't any different from anyone else, but people say it won't work.
And I don't want to fight people, but I am told that I have to defend myself...
and I just want to try to make our lives better, and safer, without being the person who is punching people.

...

But that is not going to happen. Or so I am told.

...

So I do not know what to do. I do not know what college to try to go to, I do not know what job I want, I do not even know if I want to stay in America or go back to France when I am graduated here.

I do not like not knowing. I want to know! I should know.

I have a lot on my mind. Sorry if am a little anti-social lately.

Comments

[x-kitten.livejournal.com]

Don't let them stomp on your dreams sweetie. Don't let them tell you that what you want to do isn't going to work, or isn't what you should be doing. If I'd listened to my first teachers who told me "girl's don't do science" where would I be now? But I didn't listen and I proved I could do science better than any of the boys in my first physics class.

Just because people say it won't work is no reason not to try for yourself. There are some lessons we have to learn on our own. And maybe they'll be right, and we won't be able to change public opinion, but if we don't even try, if we just take up our weapons and try to beat the world into accepting us, well... then how would we be any different than anybody?

I think you can make the world better without hurting anyone, and I think if you try hard enough you will. Maybe it'll be a harder path than the one that just leads into a fight, but harder doesn't mean worse, and it certainly doesn't mean impossible.

[x-sparky.livejournal.com]

Jono plays the guitar

Much good that's doing me.

I can play all I want and no one will notice because I'm a freak.

You think that being nice and unthreatening is somehow going to negate that. Not bloody likely. All this shite about caring and acceptance, what does it help.

What about..

[x-tarot.livejournal.com]

people who have already been important because they were good at what they did even if they were, as you say, a freak?

Re: What about..

[x-sparky.livejournal.com]

Like Alison Blaire.

How long was she important for what she is good at after she confessed she was a mutant.

[x-foliate.livejournal.com]

You and I are going to have to have a little chat, Sparky...

Ignore him, chickpea. He's just nervous about his little guitar battle for today and is taking it out on others.

You, however, are going to find something in life that you love to do. I just know it. Please, don't worry yourself about it. Believe in fate a little bit.

I'm here with a open ears and arms if you need me.

[x-sparky.livejournal.com]

You and I are going to have to have a little chat, Sparky...

Oh, really, Sunshine.

[x-foliate.livejournal.com]

Yes, really, Sunshine.

[x-crowdofone.livejournal.com]

Jamie is good at doing a dozen things at once

Half-a-dozen, anyway, but that doesn't mean any of them are important, or what I want to do with the rest of my life. You're not the only confused one around here--and hey, at least you have ideas. Even if they need other stuff to work first before they can really work.

And the way I figure--we shouldn't have to know right now. Yeah, it's cool that Ev and Kitty know what they want, but we can't even vote yet, so it's not like anybody's expecting us to change the world tomorrow.

The point of school is you come out the other end knowing more than you did. I figure we've got time.

[x-rahne.livejournal.com]

I don't know what I'll do, either. I think I could go back home... but I don't know for certain.

I don't think you have to give up on making things better without hurting people.